Saturday, December 06, 2008

Thor buried Tess in the snow again...


Today I saw three moose running along the fence line. It looked like a fully grown male and female and a calf. The calves are getting close to fully grown now. Unfortunately I didn't have my camera with me...I really need to start carrying it again. I see ravens all the time, but never when I have my camera.

We are having a heat wave. It's been in the mid 30's today and yesterday, so there is slush on the roads, and snow sliding off the roofs. The snow banks along the edges of busy roads have gotten black and dirty, and when we drive now, we get that caked up on the bottom of the vehicles and drag it into the garage. Yuck.

I slid through a stop sign for the first time this winter, and have been seeing the occasional car in the snowbank. Lucky for me I grew up in the snow, learned to drive in the snow, and so it's not a big deal...except when I am following someone who is going 10 or 15 miles below the speed limit because they don't know how to drive in this stuff.

I am still very much happy to be here instead of the desert.

Friday, December 05, 2008

yesterday at the hospital...

(every eight weeks I have an IV infusion of Remicade, a drug that suppresses my immune system, so that my immune system is busy with the Remicade instead of attacking my digestive tract. Crohn's is a fun disease. I wrote this yesterday while at the hospital.)

They have weird hospital beds at the APU/GI clinic here. When you move, they adjust, meaning that you shift slightly and suddenly the bed springs to life, emptying some air bladders and filling others under you. It's a little disconcerting at first and is really pretty comfortable if you are laying down, not so great if you are sitting up. When I first get there and I am sitting on the edge of the bed while they take my blood pressure and stuff, it seems I always manage to sit on the edge of a bladder so I am canted sideways.

Getting my Remicade in a hospital is always takes forever. Once in the solution in the IV bag, Remicade has a limited shelf life. And it's expensive. Somewhere around $3000 each time for my dosage. Nobody wants to dump $3000 worth of drugs down the drain, so they have to see the whites of your eyes before they will even consider prepping it.

(And for everything the military gets wrong, they have finally gotten it right for family member health care. I have been hospitalized twice in the last three or four years, had a dozen tests and procedures, had two sleep studies, gotten tens of thousands of dollars worth of drugs and medicines, and I have paid $6 for co-pays at a civilian pharmacy.)

And since it is being prepped in a hospital pharmacy, they get to it when they get to it. The medical facility on Elmendorf is a clinic and a hospital and I think something VA, and they serve both Fort Rich and Elmendorf and all the retirees who live around here. Which means the pharmacy is not full of people just sitting around waiting for me to show up so they can have the honor of mixing up my drug. Dang it. Instead the pharmacy is full of people inconsiderately filling prescriptions for all the lesser mortals. Usually it takes at least an hour and a half to get the Remicade delivered. I am very careful to take a book along and my journal, so that I have something to do. I guess I could watch TV, but daytime TV sucks. And they have free piles of the Anchorage Daily News around, but I can usually read the whole thing, even the sports section, in less than twenty minutes. The Wall Street Journal it is not.

When the Remicade finally shows up, they give me a shot of Benedryl first. Woo. I can literally feel the Benedryl hit my brain about a minute after the nurse injects it. I get light-headed and can barely stay awake. Remicade is made with a mouse molecule, which is kind of creepy. (I really liked cheese before I started the Remicade, I do not sleep in a pile of shredded kleenex, and I do not twitch my nose alot. Thank you for asking.) The Benedryl will hopefully counteract any mild allergic reactions. I personally have had no reactions at all to the Remicade, except for the really good ones like my immune system no longer shreds the inside of my large intestine and I don't feel like I have the joints of an eighty-eight year old woman.

The Bendryl ensures I fall asleep at least briefly, although the fact that they check my blood pressure about six times means it's not a long nap. And since the infusion takes two hours, the Benedryl wears off before I drive home.

Even in Tucson, though, I would get cold, sitting there doing nothing for several hours. It was one of the few times I was happy to step out into that horrible (but dry) heat of the Tucson summer. Going out to the Suburban which has been sitting in the parking lot for four hours, not so great. Especially when I forget to grab some gloves...that's the downside of a heated garage. You can wear a sweatshirt and jeans and be perfectly comfortable when leaving home, not bothering with the parka and the gloves and the hat, because the inside of the vehicle is warm and in the garage.

Then you leave it in a parking lot for a while...and you remember why you have gloves and a hat and a parka. But while the A/C in the Suburban is worthless, the heater is great. It warms up fast and hot.

I think my veins are getting better or I am drinking more fluids or something, because she started the IV on the first try this time. That hasn't been happening very often in the last couple of years, but lately it has taken fewer sticks to get it going. Again, woo. Being an IV pin cushion is not my favorite thing.

But getting a couple sticks is so not a big deal if it means I get my drug. Because life on Remicade is much much better than life without...

Thursday, December 04, 2008

thursday thirteen, snow edition

I lived in Tucson for four years, then this summer I moved to Anchorage. We have already gotten more than a foot of snow. I am really enjoying the snow, and taking lots of photos of snow. It's a really nice change from photographing cacti and scrub and dirt...

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1. snow clinging to the fence.

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2. and the side of the house.

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3. the chugach mountains. my backyard.

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4. snow on pine.

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5. and on the roof.

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6. I like all the various roofs and angles outside Thor's bedroom window.

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7. a roof wave. and yes, it is snowing.

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8. bench and rocks.

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9. I like the snow piles on top of the poles.

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10. snow striping.

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11. the kids' fort, after I shoveled the driveway and partially filled it in. ooops.

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12. my new hero.

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13. but not the dogs' hero...I was mean to them and left them outside on the deck as the snowblower went by, coating everything with a fine layer of snow. the dogs were not amused.

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Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Things that are very very wrong.

Burger King's Loaded Steakhouse Burger. It has what they call baked potato topping, but it's really a layer of mashed potatoes on a BBQ bacon cheeseburger.

What happens when you put mashed potatoes on a burger? It ends up with a texture like a soggy white bread bun. You know that really cheap white bread that if you squish it, it balls up into a pasty gooey mess? Like that on a burger.

It's very wrong. I didn't realize when I ordered it that's what I was getting. Thor and I were at the drive-thru, and Thor was telling me all about something. Thor can talk sometimes. Really really talk endlessly and off on tangents and once in a while horrible things happen to me because I am trying to be a good mom and actually listen to what the boy is saying. (Other times I use the old trick of throwing in enough "uh huh"s and "whoa"s to make him think I am listening, although when I have to go "wait, what?", because I suddenly realize I may have just agreed to something that will come back to haunt me, he figures it out...)

So he was telling me something and I was too lazy to really read the menu, and the radio was on, and I wanted to hurry up and order so I could roll the window back up because while I don't mind it being ten degrees out, I don't want it to be ten degrees in the Suburban, and I ordered quickly and fairly blindly, and thus ended up with the mashed potato (or mashed potatoe, if you are Dan Quayle, and how happy must he be to no longer be the most incomprehensible choice for Vice Presidential candidate in the last fifty years...) burger. ugh.

Burger King has done some good things. Onion rings that are actually lower in fat than their french fries, for one, although one container of that "Zesty Onion Ring Dipping Sauce" has FIFTEEN grams of fat, which totally negates the two grams of fat you saved by ordering the rings in the first place.

And that Burger King. Creepy yet strangely likeable...
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Also, it is getting dark, and it's only 4:21 pm. (I know it's not 4:21 pm according to the time stamp on this posting, but I am writing this Tuesday to post Wednesday. Because that way, I am one more day into my goal of posting something pretty much every day so my sister doesn't hassle me about how I am not writing anything on my blog.) Tess goes to school at 9 am, and it is just getting light, and when she gets home at 3:30, it is getting dark. We have somewhere around six hours of daylight these days, and since we are just a couple weeks from the winter solstice, that's pretty close to as short as the days will get.

I have a Happy Light now, to combat those SAD tendencies. I just turn it on for a while in the morning, and it's like the sun is shining. If the sun was made of fluorescent tubes and in a box on my kitchen counter.

There are lots more things that are wrong, like global warming and leg warmers making a comeback and High School Musical Three and german chocolate cake and Mounds bars (destroying chocolate by mixing it with coconut is just wrong. Don't deny it. You may claim it tastes good, but you know it really is an abomination against nature.) but I have a washer full of wet t shirts and undies that are not going to fling themselves into the dryer, so you will have to wait for the next installment of things that are very very wrong to find out more about them.

I wouldn't hold my breath if I were you. I really really really am not known for my organizational skills or my memory. In fact this could be the only posting ever about things that are very very wrong. And that would be a shame, I know.

Thor read this, and I was trying to explain Dan Quayle to Thor and Tess...the best I could come up with is that he was such a political lightweight that if you handed him a helium balloon he would drift off, but compared to Sarah Palin he is Ghandhi, MLK, jr, and Moses all rolled into one. Yeah. I am not a fan of our dear governor...

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

November in Photos.

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vent pipe on the side of our house

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foggy at noon (note how low in the sky the sun is at noon. we are pretty dang far north.)

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fog glazed everything

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more foggy glaze

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the park

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more of the park, 3 o'clock in the afternoon. Days are really getting short.

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my favorite store. and some really gorgeous mountains.

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the dogs playing on the deck.